So I got my grant money in a few days back and I've already spent about 500... but it was on stuff that i needed... :)

I'm putting the wedding planning on hold for right now.. i kinda feel too overwhelmed so I'm going to tackle it in a few months lol.

I bought a jogging stroller so I better get my ass in gear UGH...

Wedding

SO we've started planning for he wedding. UGH theres soo much to do... and im soo scared about the dress part of it.. Theres one dress that i like but it's alot of detail like it looks like it's a prom dress almost.. but I like it alot

IDK theres all the little stuff to worry about to.. like the favors, centerpeices and flowers ugh

schools going good..
I'lve lost 13 lbs so yay

Ready Set ....Go?

So I've decided to finally just grin and bear it

I need to lose this weight. Jayden turns one in 3 months. So I have three months to lose 30 pounds(atleast). I have to do this. I really need to just get into the mentality of losing weight. I can't stand being this overweight. I hate looking at myself. I hate buying clothes with XL on the label when I used to buy clothes in S or XS ugh. and Yes I know that I should be grateful to have the life that I do have, or w.e. I just want my body back.

School starts on Thursday. Right now I'm registered for 15 hours. But Monday I'm going to drop one, because we don't haveinternet at the house, so I really don't want to take anymore than I have. This past summer semester was hard without internet. even for the littlest things, I'd have to stop everything. So yea.

Jayden turn 9 months on Thursday. i can't believe how fast it's gone by. I can't believe how big he's gotten and how much he's already learned.

Finals Week

Ugh
It's finals week. I have 1 test tonight and two more finals due by Wednesday. I know what everyone is thinking, why aren't you studying then... Because I'm so exhuasted from studying for my other class yesterday. Ugh I don't think I can take in any more knowledge. UHGHGHGHGHGHG

I feel like I've been neglecting Jayden these past few days because I've just been studying for these classes. But I think we'll go up to STL and go to the zoo and just have a nice family day.

Tonight's test is over math...dun dun DUNN... I swear Math has its very own language.

Well I've been so stressed so of course I've been just eating everything in sight.
But I told myself that after finals are over I'll start working out(Thursday). And I have to stick with it, because I'm so tired of just sitting here complaining about it, I need to do something about it. I also need to just try and better myself. I can't just sit back and expect it to happen.

Off to study